Fear will keep us all in place

These past 2 months have made me completely change as a person. So many things have happened that made me open my eyes and realize what I really need to do with my life, and who and what is truly important to me. 

- This douche bag is officially out of my life and I couldn’t be happier. For so long I convinced myself that you were absolutely perfect for me, but I was just blinded by the chemistry between us. I realize now how bad you were for me and you made me open my eyes up to the fact that I don’t deserve nor need to take any abuse from anyone. Anyone, so thank you for that. I had to go through such a shitty time and have my heart broken, but I can now say that I am glad that everything happened. I honestly thought I loved you, but being with you and everything that happened between us made me realize that I didn’t love you. If I had truly loved you I wouldn’t have been sad almost everyday, cried my eyes out night after night because of you, second guessed everything I said because I was scared that it wasn’t the right thing to say to you, and I would have trusted you… 

- I have the best motherfucking job ever. I work 6 or 7 days a week and that may sound like it sucks, but I make so much money and the people I work with are absolutely fantastic so it doesn’t even bother me at all. I actually get excited to go to work. Yeah sometimes when it’s busy I get stressed, but I can handle myself like a boss, and i’m not trying to brag but I am damn good at my job. Outback swag.

- This is the last part of my rant, but I just wanna say that there are so many fucking people in NOVA that are fake as shit. The people who you think are you friends can also be the ones talking the most shit about you behind your back. In the past couple of months I have found that I have 4 friends that will always be there for me no matter. Thank you Alicia, Allie, Rachel, and Inessa for always being there for me when I needed someone the most. I love you girls forever and I don’t know where I would be without you guys. You guys always have my back and provide me with a shoulder to cry on when I need it. I love you all to the moon and back and you guys mean more to me than anyone else in this whole world. 

comakid:

we only know people in terms of our relationship to them and it is impossible to get to know them in terms of who they actually are. everyone is only what they are around us.

Got my Starscape ticket in the mail todaayyyy, weeee. Only like a month until the show, fucking stoked.

I miss you every time I hear a love song and whenever you’re gone.
Until I see you, then I feel short of breath.